Now, when all is not lost

Do not wait,
for the dawning of  a light.


If you are ever to come,
Come now,
Now, when the lines on my face are deep
and eroding from want of affection.


a string of jasmine would do,
a bustle of tube roses
a text.


Tonight,
I will teeter - at the hush of care.


July 24th, 2012.

Walk the mile

It is suddenly,
A little loud
A tad too cacophonous
In your world.

Sickness - like an answer
Settles with wet legs
On your dazzled heart.

You lay paralyzed,
Glaring at walls of photographs
Remembering.

Swirling smoke from half-spent cigars,
Songs of posterity - nestle
In red corners of your eyes.

The doing needs to be done,
You stick a needle in your shoe,
Walk the mile.
Walk the mile.
Walk the mile.

July 19th, 2012

Company - On the way out

Because Chayekhana is closed for last week or so, my temporary hangout is Gloria Jeans. I have a deep philosophical tirade brewing in my mind regarding that but it'll have to wait till later. Right now, I want to thank Gloria Jeans for this:

'And all I want is company 

Someone to understand this misery 

Send a reflection of myself to me 

'Cause everybody needs some company'...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qHo8I7TrLBo

Company

If you ask me I will say I'm fine 

All pink like birthday girls and valentines 

And then the stillness of the night reminds 

That I don't like to be alone 

My thoughts are race cars running 'round my head 

They burst into flames and they crash into my bed 

Until I fall into a dream instead 

Where all my lovers turn to stone 

And all I want is company 

Someone to understand this misery 

Send a reflection of myself to me 

'Cause everybody needs some company 

These times I'm living in just make no sense 

Sometimes my face gets pushed against the fence 

I want to scream out in my self-defense 

But I don't want to be alone 

And all I want is company 

Someone to understand this misery 

Send a reflection of myself to me 

'Cause everybody needs some company 

What is truth and what is fear 

Will I find it under here 

I know they're selling me a lie 

But I'm first in line to buy 

First in line to try 

I find some sanity on the written page 

Where life is worth more than a living wage 

They say the battle's over now it's time to change 

And I won't ever be alone 

And all I want is company 

Someone to understand this misery 

Send a reflection of myself to me 

'Cause everybody needs some company 

I need some company 

Must add this by Asha as a P.S.

"You are learning to empty your boat, drop your baggage, disconnect, detach, and lift up lighter and freer. You are on your way out."

Death is Nature's master stroke, albeit a cruel one

This is a passage I have returned to many many times in the past years.


"It is one of Nature's great insults that she should prefer to put ALL her eggs in the basket of a defenseless, incompetent neonate rather than in the tried and tested custody of our own superb minds. But as our neurofibrils begin to tangle, and that neonate walks to a wisdom that eludes us, we are forced to give Nature credit for her daring ideas. Of course, Nature, in her careless way, can get it wrong: people often die in the wrong order."


"Whenever you find yourself thinking 'it is better for him not to know', suspect you mean 'it is easier for me not to tell'."


"...giving a piece of yourself, some real sympathy, is worth more than allthe drugs in your pharmacopoeia to patients who are frightened, bereaved or weary of life."


~ Oxford Handbook of Clinical Medicine